...and yet bumping into the uber-hot aspiring celeb that just happens to live nearby, I'm thinking of the ways I have to get ahold of him... his website... his email address... his myspace... bla bla bla... and use these methods to contact him in some false thought that I'm somehow "special" from the hundreds or of people he's talked to... that maybe I could rope him into a date or coffee or something like that... and I feel conflicted.
To do so seems to contradict the ideals I have about meeting celebs. Granted, I think the main reason I'm interested is because he's uber-hot... but if he were any other John Doe, I wouldn't have nearly the mechanisms to get ahold of him, and I wouldn't be just another face in a sea of thousands of messages he no doubt gets. It's not that I feel I'm not noticeable or worth getting to know... quite the contrary... but when you're being hit with a hundred at once, I'd just be fanning the flames.
This is one of those situations that you just have to let go. That's okay, really... happens all the time. But it sucks to feel like you're losing out on something BECAUSE of success.