Jan. 6th, 2005 @ 10:20 am
ugh... this is unbearable. I feel like I'm dying inside. Everyone says it will get better with time... and I know... but it's almost impossible to hold back... to not call... it's practically stalking. I don't remember the last time I felt this way... to need it so bad. It's addictive... craving... worse than any withdrawl, craving, NEED I've found.
I'm trying... I really am... but it's so hard... so impossible... so craving... it's hard to imagine a feeling that's so intense that you can't control it... that takes over your rational thought so completely... you know it's happening, but you can't stop it. It's an infection that makes you ignore yourself and your sensibilities.
He's doing an excellent job... he's not returning the few calls I've given in to... but it's just killing me. I almost wish I could be sedated for the next few weeks.
just killing me.
We've all been there, and you're saner than many of us for realizing that the craving you have to talk to him, to hold him, is at once both totally irrational and completely normal.
It helps to solicit hugs from friends as often as possible. You have access to an almost endless supply of those from myself and many many others. :-)
I really do know that... I've got some really good friends... you rock :)
Be strong. Time will give you more power to deal. Is there no distraction that will take your mind away from him?
...good advice... see my next journal entry :)
been there before too. :-)
sometimes recycling an ex or two helps
(Not that this is in any way meant to be taken as good advice)
|Date:||January 6th, 2005 10:43 pm (UTC)|| |
That'll happen... though I'm not quite there yet... though I do have an ex on tap already ;)
Good time to channel those feelings into something constructive like working out at the gym or throwing water balloons out your window at republicans. Well, I've been there too - hope you get through it soon.
Are there really a lot of republicans walking by 18th and Castro?
Not since they started getting pelted by those water balloons!
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