First day back at work... how is one supposed to cope with such a traumatic experience? I really WANTED to go to bed at a reasonable hour yesterday... but somehow just couldn't manage to pull myself into it... so 2am it was. After waking up at 6:30 this morning, I think I'll probably get to sleep at a more realistic hour tonight.
One thing that has amazed me over the past two weeks is that I've been in a constantly positive mood (minor dip during bored periods here and there, but that happens) the ENTIRE time... even during "recovery periods". I've been hanging out with friends... watching TV... basically anything BUT thinking about work, and I've been happy. Amazingly happy. I had forgotten what living is really about.
The truth of the matter is that I honestly don't know what's caused it... my workouts perhaps? I do know though that this week will kinda be the test. I need to figure out what's going on and fix it. I noticed though that yesterday I just started THINKING about work, and my mood went downhill. I think perhaps I'm just sick of my job. (It HAS been 7 years, after all, with variation)... so we'll see how things go this week. I'm going to make serious attempts to apply myself... to do everything *I* can to do my job the best I can... and if my mood/attitude doesn't maintain, then I'm pointing the finger and establishing a course of action.