I'm interested in somebody... and it's wierding me out.
I've been interested in people before... in fact, as much as a playboy as I may come off as, I have to see SOMETHING in someone to even consider 'going there' with them. All too often I realize too late that what I "saw" was their cuteness or some excitement in their personality... things that are fun for a moment, but don't make for a relationship. So, after the immediate desires are satisfied and the brain gets the chance to re-engage, reality kicks in, and I backpedal to "just friends."
That's not what's happening this time around though. I'm finding myself interested in a lot of aspects of this person... and finding them all attractive and beneficial. My usual "fault-o-meter" isn't finding anything worth being concerned about... all systems are go. It's weird though because of how different it is than my "typical" scenario. He's not 18 (thank fucking god), he's not a "twink" per se (tho his body is really, really nice...), he's not smooth-as-a-baby's-ass (but he's definately not out of control... very, very well managed and incredibly attractive...), he's got a job (repeat: thank fucking god), he seems stable (repeat: thank fucking god), and... I dunno... it just all seems to add up (for me... we'll see where things go for "him" and the possible "us")... When I think of him, I think of comfort... security... fun... stability... caring... decency... flexibility... a lot of things I've been looking for. Don't get me wrong... there's no pedestal going on... I know he's just as human as I am... it's just that... I guess in concept... he just FEELS GOOD (conceptually)... inside and out... and that's really, really exciting. :) For the record, I know the warnings... and I'm trying not to create expectations or pressure on him, myself, or the potential "us" to be something other than what we are (including but not limited to "nothing"). But I'm happy to be excited about the prospects in someone... and I'm happy that those prospects don't feel very short-sighted.
Of course, this is all subject to change.... :P